that's absurd

The absurd is born out of this confrontation between the human need and the unreasonable silence of the world. - Camus

I can't remember a time when I haven't been concerned with life's absence of meaning; it used to cause me so much stress. I realised recently that since having children I've learned to create my own sense of meaning and purpose. I have finally achieved the ultimate freedom; no system applies to me anymore, I make my own choices and live the way I want. I know that I read Camus when I was younger, but I didn't fully understand it. I thought it was anarchistic...and in some ways it is, but mainly the intent is to free humans from bondage. What I love most about the idea of absurdism is the concept of this complete and utter personal freedom. It is the ultimate revolt.

Christmas is coming...soon-ish. For the past two years we have flown out to a hot place on Boxing Day, much to the chagrin of my family. The kids were young enough that we just moved everything forward by a day; "Santa's been here!!", when it's really only the 24th is fun but weird...it's important to avoid the neighbourhood kids who are on the real calendar. This year, in honour of the fact that my brother finally has a girlfriend to bring to the table, we won't leave until the 30th. I am looking forward to a less rushed Christmas...letting the kids wake up on Boxing Day to lounge around in pyjamas playing with new toys until noon, family walks on the boulevard, enjoying our tree for a little bit longer, maybe even a day on the mountain. The kids are growing up so fast, they will only be 6 and 4 once, in a few years we'll be done with 'Santa' and we can go back to jetting out on Boxing Day;)