need-less

Well, I've really done it now. Have officially signed up for the 25km trail race in March and am already planning to win it. This is exactly why I thought I should stay away from races...I am waaaaay too competitive. Actually am loving the excitement of training for it...I really do want to at least place and I know that if I can keep up my pace I will.

Have been back from Bahamas for a day and a half and already the trip feels surreal, like it never happened. I miss vacation life. I miss my kids. I miss the ease of having no possessions except what will fit into three duffel bags and a couple of backpacks; seriously, why do we have so much crap at our house? Most of all I miss the attitude on the islands. I took A2 to the coffee shop after preschool yesterday and while I was sitting there enjoying my misto (I did miss some things from home) I started noticing how false and pretentious all the other patrons seemed. In particular I was watching a woman sitting with two friends and talking to a fairly attractive man who had just walked in. Her reactions to the things other people were saying were so over the top that she was almost a parody of herself. But, I get it, The city breeds this frenetic pace that bleeds into everything we do; in the Bahamas everything is slower, even the way people speak. Am going to try and retain some of the slowness that has followed me home. Listen, watch, think, react. I want to be calm.

More crazy dreams lately. Last night I was lost in a furniture and mattress store in Alberta. It was dark and suddenly who should turn up but the "anonymous" looking superhero with no merits from my pixel man dream. He was prancing around with the most exaggerated grin on his face, which now also has a ridiculous moustache, telling me how fantastic he is. Woke up feeling creeped out. Wish pixel man would come back instead.