insomnia

5am and I can't sleep. Everything conspired to wake me two hours earlier than necessary this morning specifically, my own inability to sleep around certain noises such as loud and irregular breathing. I know, it sounds ridiculous, but it's true that I can't stand the sound of breathing. My grandmother was a heavy breather (owing to the fact that she was a life-time smoker and seriously overweight); my brother and I used to make fun of her breathing all the time. In fact we still have a fairly apoplectic impersonation that we do of our father and his loud breathing whenever we're reminiscing about years gone by. But, I digress. The fact is there are certain sounds that I can push out of my mind and certain that I can't. Traffic - ok. Traffic on wet pavement - not ok. Thumping from the apartment upstairs - not ok. Music from the apartment upstairs - ok. Breathing - absolutely not ok. Talking - ok. Running bath water - ok. Dripping rain gutters - not ok. There's no rhyme or reason to the sounds that raise my blood pressure and I don't know how to change my reaction. So, most times I just get up.

Have been having a lot of fun chasing up the last bit of summer. Went riding up in Squamish last weekend for the first time - what an eye opener. These guys are building, and riding, 30ft jumps with 30ft gaps to the landing pads. I was pretty stoked during the ride, but there were a few sections where I ended up walking. Partly it was because I was tired. Partly because I was freakin’ terrified. I was also having a terrible bout of extreme overactive imagination. I won’t go into the details, but suffice it to say that I’m a freak. Although, I’ll never be taken out into the woods and shot unexpectedly. Nope, I’ll know it’s coming.

Hmmmm, love these days of cool air and sun. Have to take advantage of every moment ‘till the rain comes.