the top of the hill is still a ways away

Quick post on the eve of completing my 40th year and I do really have so many thing I wish to think and say and write, but as usual, I am in a rush. I feel a bit as though I've been avoiding having any kind of reconciliation with my 30's. I feel as though I thought way more about the significance of entering a new decade a few months ago than I have been lately. It's partly because of the season - Christmas is for kids and there is little time left to debrief with myself and set new goals of the coming years. But, it's also because I feel on task; and as long as I continue to seek out the path that serves me and respects me I know that I can have a happy and fulfilling life. I am progressing and this "new year" doesn't feel like much of a milestone at all. Having said that, yes...I do with I was younger. I so wish that it didn't take so long for me to get good at life because I do feel time licking at my heels. 40. If I get my way I'll have at least another good 60 years of living, loving, learning and experiencing. Onward and upward.