morgan

I went to class last night after all. I really wasn't feeling well but the main reason I didn't want to go was lack of studying. I knew the prof would call on me for some question and I would sit there stammering until my face went purple and she moved on to someone else. And, she did. But really, it wasn't so bad. I had been working ahead in class, doing the exercises as we were reviewing them and so I actually had an answer. It just wasn't right. So, now today is Saturday and I get to decide what to do with a whole day, yuck. I know exactly what's going to happen. I'll motivate myself to go for a walk to grab a coffee on the pretext that I will then come home and do some homework, clean up a bit, read, and other productive tasks. Instead, I will come home and stare around, thinking about all the things I would like to do. I'll think about going for a run (can't do that because I just ate), doing some yoga (again, just ate), calling up a friend (I have too many chores to do to be having fun), housework (it's not really that dirty), shower (housework first) - until finally I'll just give up and sit down and end up watching 10 hours of crap TV. I know myself well. I have willpower problems. According to a recent study dome by Tulane University students human beings have a limited amount of willpower. Their research suggests that if a human exercises their willpower repeatedly that eventually their willpower will run out. I think mine might have run out a few years ago.