delayed reactions

Argghh, how to describe the past month? There have been ups and downs and all arounds and now I’m left with a slightly overcast feeling. The rush and splendor of the holiday being over has really emphasized how routine my life is. Of course, I have resolved to get out more and socialise, and while I know that I’ll continue to do this for a time I also know that eventually I’ll get tired of schlepping all over the city to visit people and return to my old ways. Maybe it’s partly due to being half of a couple. I don’t need to go out and find company because I already have someone to hang out with at home. In keeping with this idea I’ve encouraged J to go out more with his friends, to “do more guy stuff” is what I told him. But, then my initial thought as soon as he leaves is, ”ooh, I have the house all to myself!” and so it really doesn’t help feed the fuel of motivation on getting out and being social. As for other resolutions – didn’t make any since I don’t ever really feel like starting anew in January. My time for change and betterment is usually in September (a left-over from school no doubt; fresh pencils = fresh start). Anyway, in January I’m still clinging to whatever resolutions I made in September since the collapse usually doesn’t come until March.

Had some really unusual and unexpected encounters over the holidays. Old friends came out of the woodwork. Not so sure what to write about with regards to the experiences though. Overall, it served as another hefty reminder that it is people who make up our personal histories – keeping in touch, even when life seems to take us in different directions, is invaluable.

Our co-ed team played a game last night at 11:00pm, so I’m feeling a little dazed from lack of sleep. Although, having slept for only two hours I woke up feeling more rested than I would have after 4 or 5 hours. Two hours is more like a nap I guess, easier on the body to wake up from that. Of course, I guess this means I haven’t had the requisite REM sleep, which I hear, can cause poor judgment, decreased hand-eye coordination and reaction speed and moodiness. Sounds like me on a good day.